Sunday, May 29, 2011

The world to one

Having your first baby can be so daunting. You don't fully know how a new baby will affect your life until you're living through it. Not to mention the crazy hormones! Having no local family or support system to help you get through the sleepless nights, what-ifs, how-tos, highs and lows can set a new mom up for depression and loneliness. That's why I'm so thankful I have NorthMetroDCMommies; these ladies have been my anchor, my rock, my sanity check!

My new baby daughter didn't sleep well. She cried nonstop for 12 straight hours. And it didn't end after the "typical" 4th trimester. We had trouble with nursing for the first 8 months, with latching, oversupply, mastitis, plugged ducts, and her severe reflux. I was extremely overtired and extremely overwhelmed with my new responsibilities.

One day, when she was about 6 months old, I was sitting with her in the back seat of our car in a parking lot after buying groceries. It was raining out and I had just nursed her to sleep. She's not a child that transitions well, so I stayed there with her asleep on my lap, crying. I was so tired and so sad. I was lonely and frustrated. I opened up a bottle of Honest Tea I had just bought. They print quotes on the bottom of each lid, and this time it read, "To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world." (by Brandi Snyder). To say that made my day would be an understatement! I looked down at my sleeping baby and felt a warmth and overflowing love! I was her world, her whole world, at that age. I felt so blessed and fortunate. It was a very difficult time in my life, but I wouldn't trade it for anything!

She's now a sweet, sensitive, and active four year old. She sleeps through the night, likes to cuddle with mommy (and our kitty!), and fills my days with awe and wonder! 

Author at home with daughter and kitty


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